I open this blog entry with this quote:
“There is a greater darkness than the one we fight. It is the darkness of the soul that has lost its way. The war we fight is not against powers and principalities; it is against chaos and despair. Greater than the death of flesh is the death of hope, the death of dreams. Against this peril we can never surrender. The future is all around us, waiting, in moments of transition, to be born in moments of revelation. No one knows the shape of that future or where it will take us. We know only that it is always born in pain.”
This is written by J. Michael Straczynski, creator of Babylon 5.
I wanted to write about death, but found that a bit difficult these days. The passing of Robin Williams really hit a sour note with me, as suicide is a sensitive subject. A family member of mine is dealing with an attempt recently, and it has thrown me for a loop. And to see the best comic genius in our day who would do such things as cheer up the entire production crew for Schindler’s List, has just taken his own life?
I feel lost. It’s like the whole world decided to go upside down.
I’ve dealt with it myself; it’s like that dream where you try to punch through a glass wall but can’t. You continue to do so, but tire yourself out, leaving you exhausted. You’re not really depressed in a way, but trapped, nowhere to go.
I don’t have anything inspiring or productive to offer with this entry. My mind has been weird, and I’ve become extremely forgetful of almost everything these days. I read something and forget it instantaneously. That’s my pain and suffering, the betrayal of my own mind.
That’s not a good way to go. But there is the quote by JMS. I journey on from there.